I thought I was grown at the age of 18 when I took off in a Greyhound bus to Monahans, Texas to follow a boy...(thought at the time he was a man - I was wrong on both counts).
I thought I was was taking my life into my own hands when I divorced that 'boy' and got a job as a cocktail waitress in a local club....
I was wrong.
I thought when I got a full time job as a signpainter and was buying my own car that I was taking control of life - all grown up - I was wrong again.
When I moved in to my first apartment all by myself - surely then I was an adult.... nope, wrong again.
When I moved in w/ my boyfriend and started raising his two kids, I thought I was quite the adult... then he beat me up - I left and ran to my daddy.. again - wrong.
When I got married, moved into our own house and had my kids... working as home daycare and being team mother for the ballteam... paying bills and washing clothes and teaching the kids important lessons in life.... undoubtedly I HAD to be grown then..right?? well, not entirely. Hubby left me 10 years later...
Now w/ just me and the kids, it was time to carve out a place in our future - THIS was a job for an adult for sure ... my Mom & Dad had to help me get on my feet w/ a place to live.... not so adult, huh?
-So I enrolled in college and worked hard toward my degree.... felt very much like an adult.... w/ the weight of the world on my shoulders... whatta ya think - Adult??
Well, I'm remarried now, 3 years to a great man w/ 2 boys. I work now in a school, interpreting in sign language for hearing impaired and D/deaf students, our kids are mostly raised and even after all I have done to get here... sometimes I still don't feel like a grown up. I wonder when it will dawn on me that I'm grown. That adulthood is right here w/ me and I absolutly am in charge of my own life - and in many ways the lives of others... maybe I'll never entirely grow up - and maybe thats just fine w/ me.
What about you?
Is there a point in your life when it suddenly hit you??...
"I'm an adult, all grown up, and responsible, productive person in the world".
What was that point for you? OR are you still waiting for it?